have u ever moved on from someone that u loved or something that u rlly like?
i think most of us ever been there.
Moving on isnt easy, but thats the only best thing to do especially when we are in toxic relationship.
im gonna tell u smtg bout my story,
i have met someone, well not in real.. only in virtual. i met him in 2013, when i was in last year of senior high school.
and after some chit chats, we decided to move on skype.
haha, its cringe to describe what we have been through for 6 yrs after i decided to move on.
the point is, we r not couple, not even now. so what ar we? yep. thats what ive been thinking bout in the past.
i felt that we were special, but there was no sign to be more than friends, or lets say "couple".
tho, we did share alot, about our lives, and struggles.. but still we r not couple.
i wanted us to b a couple, but we never met in real, and he lives so far away from here. the tickets can b so expensive, also the cost living.
We have talked about travelling together several times, but theres ntg happened. i wanted but i felt hesitate too.
at first time, i put the blame on him the most, which is not good. it was not his fault, neither mine.
we know that we want to meet in real, but that was not as easy as i expected. and that was my fault.
the reason why i decided to move on, bcs i dont think we are meant to be. HAHA classy.
I feel that we r not matched anymore, and theres no more connection between us.
we used to b matched. but the time wasnt matched. untill we feel theres no more connection.
i think he felt hesitate too, to be in more than a friend with me.
so yeah, i feel i was just a burden, coz i did expect much from him.
we still r friends till now, but my feeling towards him kinda changed.
i used to think we shud b a couple or maybe we gotta b a couple, but i hv changed my mind also my perspective.
we still chat too, though its not intense like we used to do. (we r busy with our works actually :))
the point is, i never regret to meet him even only in virtual. im proud of him. HES EPIC.
what i regret the most is, my behavior in the past.
i was the one that made situation become cold, and sometimes it ended up by fighting. sry bro:P
if i didnt expext too much, maybe we wud b in healthy relationship.^^ /maybe/
hehe
for u who is too far away from me, i just wanna say sorry and thank u.
u know, i always wish u to be happy.
sometimes i dont say it, coz i know ur strong. :p but maybe u need to hear or read it from me sometimes.
for u who is too far away from me, pls b happy.
ur good person, and as i have told u...u deserve the best:)
yours truly,
EL
