Manusia Hidup Berpasangan

Jika memang benar manusia hidup berpasangan, tapi mengapa justru  diri ini seolah enggan,

Mungkin enggan karena takut, takut jika suatu saat nanti, akan ada satu orang yang membuatku berggantung padanya, dan ketika dia pergi, aku bahkan tidak dapat membayangkan bagaimana rasanya,

Jika memang manusia hidup berpasangan, bisa tidak ya aku tetap memiliki hati yang kuat, sehingga jika aku kecewa suatu saat nanti, hati ini tetap terasa sehat,

Aku hanya takut ketika aku benar-benar menaruh harapan pada satu orang, hal itu malah membuat diriku terluka semakin lebih, walau aku ingin disayangin dan menyayangi, rasanya aku kasihan saja pada diriku sendiri kalau harus melalui lebih banyak perih,

Jika memang benar manusia hidup berpasangan, harapku kepada-Nya, agar aku dapat bahagia di masa kini, bahkan di masa depan

-Pachan-

kecewa

 BERHARAP BERUJUNG KEKECEWAAN

mengapa berharap selalu berujung kekecewaan?

ketika harapan lebih besar daripada kenyataan

padahal sudah berulang kali berusaha untuk mengingatkan diri sendiri

bahwa hati ini sudah penuh dengan perih

namun ternyata, selalu diri ini menolak untuk memahami

dan ketika terjadi,malah hanya bisa menyalahi diri sendiri

"aku yang salah karena terlalu bodohkah?"

lalu mulai menyadari betapa banyak sakit yang ada di hati

aku hanya ingin menjadi manusia yang baik

tapi salah memang jika ternyata aku berharap pada manusia lain untuk melakukan hal yang serupa

dan kenapa ya? ketika ku berfikir untuk membuat manusia lain bahagia

ternyata mereka hanya membuat hati ini bertambah luka

mungkin memang aku yang salah, mungkin memang bukan mereka

salahku karena terlalu berharap suatu hal yang bahkan mereka tak bisa beri

sepertinya aku harus berhenti ya? 

untuk mereka yang menyakiti, ku ikhlas kalian pergi:)

Terima Kasih:)

i Just wish Im happy and ill be

 Every morning i wake up

i wish everything will go right

everything i do

everything i dream about

And when the night comes

i wonder what i have done

did i do things right

did i do things wrong

im afraid of many things

i get so overthinking

i dont know what to do

feeling not confident at all

i just wanna be myself

stop comparing with somebody else

i just wanna live my life 

and being happy...

i just wish im happy

MOVE ON

have u ever moved on from someone that u loved or something that u rlly like?

i think most of us ever been there.

Moving on isnt easy, but thats the only best thing to do especially when we are in toxic relationship.

im gonna tell u smtg bout my story,

i have met someone, well not in real.. only in virtual. i met him in 2013, when i was in last year of senior high school.

and after some chit chats, we decided to move on skype.

haha, its cringe to describe what we have been through for 6 yrs after i decided to move on.

the point is, we r not couple, not even now. so what ar we? yep. thats what ive been thinking bout in the past.

i felt that we were special, but there was no sign to be more than friends, or lets say "couple".

tho, we did share alot, about our lives, and struggles.. but still we r not couple.

i wanted us to b a couple, but we never met in real, and he lives so far away from here. the tickets can b so expensive, also the cost living.

We have talked about travelling together several times, but theres ntg happened. i wanted but i felt hesitate too.

at first time, i put the blame on him the most, which is not good. it was not his fault, neither mine.

we know that we want to meet in real, but that was not as easy as i expected. and that was my fault.

the reason why i decided to move on, bcs i dont think we are meant to be. HAHA classy.

I feel that we r not matched anymore, and theres no more connection between us.

we used to b matched. but the time wasnt matched. untill we feel theres no more connection.

i think he felt hesitate too, to be in more than a friend with me.

so yeah, i feel i was just a burden, coz i did expect much from him. 

we still r friends till now, but my feeling towards him kinda changed.

i used to think we shud b a couple or maybe we gotta b a couple, but i hv changed my mind also my perspective.

we still chat too, though its not intense like we used to do. (we r busy with our works actually :))

the point is, i never regret to meet him even only in virtual. im proud of him. HES EPIC.

what i regret the most is, my behavior in the past.

i was the one that made situation become cold, and sometimes it ended up by fighting. sry bro:P

if i didnt expext too much, maybe we wud b in healthy relationship.^^ /maybe/

hehe

for u who is too far away from me, i just wanna say sorry and thank u.

u know, i always wish u to be happy.

sometimes i dont say it, coz i know ur strong. :p but maybe u need to hear or read it from me sometimes.

for u who is too far away from me, pls b happy.

ur good person, and as i have told u...u deserve the best:)

yours truly,

EL

HAPPINESS

Hello everyone!

I want to share this video, for u.
I love watching videos on TEDX
So inspiring and helping me learn my english.

i love this topic btw.

"Happiness doesnt come from wealth, fame, working hard. it comes from relationship.and its not about the number of friends that u have, whether or not you re in comitted relationship with a partner, they found its the quality of the relationship that counts. Being able to be vulnurable, listening, and sharing whats close to your heart, thats what matters."

So, from this topic i got to learn that happiness comes from ourselves.

Its a skill.

its how we do more good things than bad things.

its about sharing, and being warm to other people.

if its kinda hard sometimes, when u see people being happy while u having bad day, pls dont be envy.

people deserve to be happy. all of us.

just be happy while people being happy too, and the happiness will be back to u. believe this.

Amin.

Salam cinta,

penyu

Hey, wkwk

Ini sebenernya lanjutan dari post pegasus market.
The topic is about "Karyawan adalah Raja"

Karyawan adalah raja tuh sebenernya motto yang dikasih Jung Bok Dong ke karyawannya, makanya mereka pakai baju raja. wkwk

This motto is so true tho.

In this era, people are too focus on customer, but they dont take the attention to the employee. Its true,that we need to be good to our customers, but the point is how we (employee) be good to our customers if we are not treated well? 

As a good company, they should take care of their employees.

So they are not only focus on the products and the customers but also to the employees.

"Its not only about the results, but its also about the process"

Hehe. Syedap.

we are the employee, who create the products, sell the products, and deliver it to customers.

So i think we deserve more. 

I tell smtg like this, because i think there are still some companies that havent thought bout that yet.

Its not only about money, but we need some reward, motivation and ofc some respect. its very important to give feedbacks, ask how we work and what we struggling with. And I dont think its true, if the company only think about the profits but never have any efforts to make everything better. its kinda useless isnt it

Its just my thoughts, but i so wish people will always be good to people. 

Salam cinta,

Penyu

Hey !

Omg its been long time since i made a post on this blog.
I never use blog cause im not good at it, but i just learned some basic things and its not that difficult hehe.

So in this Post, im gonna tell you my current favorite korean drama that i think its very worth to watch.

What is that?
PEGASUS MARKET.

well, im gonna tell this story in Bahasa and english.

Pegasus Market, ini drakor luar biasa bagusnya.

Cerita yang ada di drama ini tuh enteng banget dan related bgt sama kehidupan nyata.

Seperti misalnya, gimana para pemainnya struggling buat menuhin kebutuhan hidup padahal mereka punya tanggungan dan gada pekerjaan.

Ini drakor kaya ngasih tau buat lebih banyak bersyukur dan lebih sadar masih banyak orang diluar sana yang lebih membutuhkan. 

Tbh, im so sensitive person. Jadi ada beberapa scene yang bikin aku nangis dan ngebayangin gmna ya kalo ngejalanin itu beneran di kehidupan nyata. huft. 

Bermula dari cerita seorang direktur di Daema Grup (daema grup kaya perusahaan gede bgt lah, yang punya banyak anak perusahaan) bernama Jung Bok Dong yang di"buang" ke pegasus market oleh Presidir Daema Grup yaitu si Kim Dae Ma karena ngelakuin suatu kesalahan. Si Bok Dong walaupun kesel, tetep nerima aja. Nah, kenapa harus pake kata di"buang"? karena Pegasus market ini tuh kaya pasar ga laku gitu, masyarakat jarang beli disana dan emang ga terurus bgt, dan setiap karyawan yang di transfer kesana tuh ibaratnya udah gada harapan lagi, mendingan resign aja. wkwk

Di pegasus market ini, ada manajer namanya Moon Suk Goo, dia itu polos tapi ulet banget. Singkat cerita,  si Jung Bok Dong itu buat beberapa rencana yang awalnya dia pikir akan buat bangkrut si Pegasus market, malah justru kebalikannya. Seperti yang awal bgt kejadian, dia rekrut karyawan tanpa liat resume, nah karyawannya tuh dr musisi yang gagal terkenal, supir, preman, orang2 dari suku pedalaman(ga cuman 1, tapi 10), anak kecil dan bapaknya yg udah meninggal, dan yg terakhir tukang bersihin sampah yang udh dipecat. Itu yang menariknya. Si Moon Suk Goo yang awalnya ga nerima, karna ya secara pasti susah bgt kan kerja di anak perusahaan daema group even its a pegasus market. wkwk cuman makin kesini, dia makin ngerti bahwa emang kebersamaannya tuh klop banget.

SO pegasus market ini seru bangettt, Jung Bok Dong kerennn. Segudang rencana yang dia bikin yang justru malah bikin orang makin rame belanja di sana tuh kaya plot twist banget wkwk, ditambah kelakuan aneh dia plus karyawan2nya yang bikin takjub, :")

I already watched till ep.10, and its gonna end soon. So sad.

I thought this drama gonna be so boring, cause the genre is drama, but then i dont even regret it.

Im so inspired by Jung Bok Dong, He is very good person even just a character on drama.

He can deliver the moral and some points that i think "well its true". 

I so wish i can be like him, even when im already success. 

hehe Thankyou Jung Bok Dong and Moon Suk Goo, dan semua cast. y'all have did great job.

Salam cinta,

Penyu